so, i was super excited about the new job possibility and i knew it was pretty much mine if i wanted it, it’s basically the job i’ve been wanting since i started working at that hospital, 32 hours a week at the inpatient pharmacy, it tends to be three days on and two days off, that alone sounded so awesome to me.  i put my application in on friday, it’s a technicality, i all ready work for the hospital, but you still have to apply for new positions, then, over the weekend, i came to the harsh realization that this is the job i would have fallen all over myself for BEFORE i got pregnant.  when i applied for the job the little voice in the back of my head was saying “there is no effing way you are going to want to work 32 hours a week after the baby comes,” but i stifled it and i applied anyways.  on monday i had to call my boss and withdraw my application.  it’s a bummer because the work at the  inpatient pharmacy is quite a bit more technical and therefore more interesting, but i am pretty sure that i will not want to work more than twenty hours a week after the baby comes.  i worked awfully hard to get her, it is hard for me to imagine sending her off to daycare for 45 hours a week when she’s just a little baby.  i talked to my mom about it and we both agreed that if she lived here in michigan and could take the baby while i worked that i would be able to do it, but she doesn’t live here and i just can’t bear the thought of her being in daycare that much.  so, it’s back to plan a, which is hopefully going to be that i’ll be cutting back my hours soon (my feet are KILLING me) to 9-1 monday-friday , i’ll be taking three months off after baby a is born and then hopefully going back to that same 9-1 monday-friday schedule.  we’re also hoping that my husband will be getting a promotion soon, and then if i don’t want to work i probably won’t have to because we think that if he does get promoted his new salary will be more than his current salary and my current full time salary put together.  we’ll see though, i might still want to work a couple of days a week anyways.

we are thinking of naming the baby louise after my husband’s mother who died about 11 years ago, so from here on out i will probably refer to her as baby louise.  my husband wants to meet her before we decide on anything to make sure that louise suits her.  in any case baby louise found a new way to kick me yesterday.  i’m not sure if her poistion shifted or what, but it feels like she is kicking down, into the va-jay-jay area, it is a little unpleasant but not too bad, of course right now she only weighs bout two pounds, i can’t imagine what that’s going to feel like in a couple of months!!!

p.s. i just read some terrible news on allison’s blog, sometime over the last week she lost all of her amniotic fluid, tomorrow she will have to deliver at just 18 weeks and say good-bye to her baby.  please visit her at one of her blogs and show her some love…

my journey with endometriosis
charlotte days

everything i said in this post seems so petty now, who cares about that stupid job.  last year this was a pretty devastating time for us, i had a laparoscopy the day before thanksgiving and we didn’t know if we would ever be able to have kids.  this year on thanksgiving i will be seven months pregnant, if there has ever been a year for me to be thankful, this is it.

my husband was able to feel the baby kick once a few weeks ago, ever since then when she starts moving and i tell him to come feel she immediately stops, but last night when we were in bed she was going CRAZY, moving around for like an hour, i’m not 100% sure what she was doing in there but i think she may have been renovating, possibly putting on an addition.  i do wish i could see what she’s doing, is she kicking? punching? does she have the hiccups? anyways, he got to feel and see a ton of movement, which he loved.

in other news, today when i weighed myself i was surprised to see that i have lost three pounds, so that puts my total weight gain back down to five pounds.  i don’t know why, i’m not trying to lose weight, i eat pretty much whatever i want.  when i’m not pregnant my weight kind of fluctuates between a few pounds, maybe that’s why, maybe it fluctuates when i’m pregnant too? **shrug**

possibly some interesting things on the horizon at work.  i work at the retail pharmacy in a hospital, we of course also have an inpatient pharmacy as well, the work there is more technical, mixing iv bags and such, something that’s going to go directly into someone’s vein, not just taking pills off the shelf and putting them in a bottle (although there is some of that too).  the same day that i talked to my boss about cutting my hours a tech from the inpatient pharmacy resigned.  it was a forced resignation, she made a medication with the wrong ingredient that was used on a lot of patients, that’s all i will say about it because it is a pretty big deal, those people could sue the hospital if they wanted too.  when a tech makes anything it is supposed to be checked by a pharmacist, it appears that this was not checked, so all of the pharmacists that were on that day are in trouble too.  in any case there is a job open at the inpatient pharmacy now, 32 hours/week.  my schedule will be different, right now i work m-f from 9:30-6, but the inpatient pharmacy is open until 8 m-f so there are some evening shifts involved, they are also open on weekends and each tech works about one weekend /month.  last but not least they are open on holidays, they are rotated so you don’t work every holiday, but you do work some.  i like the idea of having some mornings off and also some weekdays off, currently when i have a doctor’s appt i have to take time off of work, but if i had a weekday or a morning off i wouldn’t have to take any extra time off.  so, i applied, we’ll see what happens…

here i am, 26 weeks pregnant! my stomach is growing by the second.  i don’t have much else to report today, i’m still sick but not as sick as i was last time, i’m sooooooo tired.  i talked to my boss about cutting back my hours today, we’ll see what happens.

we went to see metallica last night, my husband has been SO excited for this concert, me a little excited, but i’m not a fan of anything after and justice for all, master of puppets and garage days revisited (gotta love the misfits covers) are my favorite metallica albums, so i wasn’t QUITE as excited as the husband as i knew their would be lots of post and justice for all stuff.  it was a good mix of new and old, quite a bit different from when i saw them 18 years ago, there was a lot of long hair, head banging and a huge mosh pit at that show, this concert was an interesting display of the ridiculously broad spectrum of fans that metallica has now, from five-year old kids to people older than me, must be cool to have such a diverse fan base.  we were very close to the stage and there were pyrotechnics and everything you would expect at a metallica concert, that being said… going to a concert when you are 6.5 months pregnant, sick and have been on your feet working all day may not be the SMARTEST decision, my feet hurt soooooooo bad, i cannot even find an adjective to express the pain.  but i made it through the whole concert, if my husband had it to do over again i think he would probably say, hey, my wife’s pregnant, maybe floor tickets aren’t such a good idea, perhaps i should get tickets that have a seat!  anyways, baby a has been to three concerts now, the silversun pickups, pinback and metallica, and we’ve got one more coming up in a couple of weeks, hank III, we will be arriving at that show nice and early in order to get a seat!!

p.s. it’s becoming increasingly difficult to put socks on.

i am sick… again, blahhhh.

on monday i got out of work early and my husband and i drove to ann arbor to see one of my favorite bands (pinback) play, it was awesome, the bar was tiny and there was only about 150 people there tops…

i took the next day off so we spent the night in ann arbor and slept in the next day, then we went out to lunch and stopped at an outlet mall on the way home.  i have been throughly unimpressed with outlet malls lately, this one had a motherhood maternity store so i went in to see what the price difference was, the clerk told me there is no difference from their regular stores, they have the same clothes at the same prices, they just have more as is and clearance stuff.  this seemed to be the case at most of the stores, no real good deals to be had.  the nike store had some pretty cheap shoes though, that would be a good place to buy kids shoes, i had to resist the urge to buy the cutest baby shoes ever, baby a is not even born yet, she DOES NOT need tennis shoes (they really were cute though)!!!

i am still feeling pretty good but working full-time is getting hard.  it would be fine except that right around 2:00 every day i get hit with a wave of tiredness like no other, i feel like someone has drugged me until about 4:00, it totally sucks, so i told my husband today that we might need to think about me cutting back a little.  i have of course been worried about how much weight i am going to gain, so far i have gained seven pounds, i don’t think that’s too bad, i was hoping to stay under twenty but now i’m hoping to stay under fifteen, that would be awesome.

i stayed home and passed out candy while my husband took his daughter trick or treating, i love seeing all the kids dressed up.  originally riley wanted to be marilyn monroe for halloween… she’s twelve.  barely.  she JUST turned twelve.  twelve is too young to be marilyn monroe, we steered her in a different direction and she decided to be a witch, much more age appropriate, but even when we were picking out that costume we had to steer her away from the whore-ish costumes, why do they make children’s costumes with short skirts and thigh high stockings??? anyways, she looked cute in her witch costume and she stayed out for over an hour trick or treating even though it was FREEZING and she doesn’t really like candy that much.  annabel’s costume was just a little too small for her fat belly this year…

annabel's "bat princess" costume

this is the display my husband threw together in about an hour last night, next year is going to be epic, he purchased a fog machine and some other halloween display stuff in the target clearance today (i got some pretty effing cute baby stuff for next year too)…

i also got this costume for annabel for next year, it is so cute i can hardly stand it!

so i’ve gotten a couple of awards in the past few weeks that i haven’t had time to address yet and it looks like today’s the day.  i’m going to try not to cheat too bad, but i probably will a little, i’m not very good at the whole award thing but here we go…

the first one is from amber, thank-you for the award, it was very nice of you…

Here are the rules:
1. You can only use one word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers.
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have Fun!

The Survey
1. Where is your cell phone? desk
2. Your hair? brown
3. Your mother? miss
4. Your father? love
5. Your favorite food? cheese
6. Your dream last night? gone
7. Your favorite drink? coke
8. Your dream/goal? baby
9. What room are you in? office
10. Your hobby? snowboarding
11. Your fear? loss
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? comfortable
13. Where were you last night? home
14. Something that you aren’t? weak
15. Muffins? blueberry
16. Wish list item? house
17. Where did you grow up? michigan
18. Last thing you did? shop
19. What are you wearing? clothes
20. Your TV? old
21. Your pets? dogs
22. Friends? missed
23. Your life? busy
24. Your mood? content
25. Missing someone? yes
26. Vehicle? corolla
27. Something you’re not wearing? hat
28. Your favorite store? costco!
29. Your favorite color? green
30. When was the last time you laughed? earlier
31. Last time you cried? september?
32. Your best friend? far
33. One place that I go to over and over? tj max
34. One person who e-mails me regularly? mom
35. Favorite place to eat? san chez

nominating these bloggers for both awards…

celia (clever)

elisabeth (funny)

dawn (due (i love it that out due dates are so close!))

allison (strong)

riceroni (honest)

beat-up & stitched (cute (new baby!))

hope (positive)

stacey (enduring)

katie (tough)

kat (happy)

egghunt (hopeful)

athena (perseverance)

myndi (genuine)

meggomae (entertaining)

wiseguy(engaging)

i nominated everyone on my blogroll (except those who nominated me and those who haven’t posted in months) because i love you all, you are all fantastic.

award number two, thank-you astrid, you’re so sweet…

i think this pretty much sums it up, the media has completely confused the general public as far as the h1n1 vaccine goes.