infertile myrtle

katery — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 20:54:22 +0000

first and foremost… louise peed in the potty!!!! it happened yesterday when i was at work, i am sorry i missed it but proud that she did it. now, if we can just get her to do it every time (yeah right!).

i have been feeling pretty good since i got back from montana, which is awesome, but i think it’s due to the fact that carl has been home most of the time since i got back. i know that it’s not going to last, which is kind of bummer, but i hope the happiness decides to stay. i have a therapy appt, i think on thursday (i should probably look into the day and time!) that i’m not really looking forward to, i know i’m supposed to go but i really hate therapy, i just don’t think it helps (i do think it helps some people, just not me).

my friend katie is coming from chicago for louise’s birthday party, i’m so excited! she’ll be here on the 3rd with her husband and daughter and it think she’ll be here until the 5th, it is going to be so fun!! louise’s part is coming together with lots of guests, it’s going to be a fun day. katie is planning to make louise this cake with a little help from me…

i’m sure she will freak out because for some unknown reason, she’s totally obsessed with spongebob. i don’t know what it is about that damn show, but she asks for it all the time, “bobbob, bobbob!!!” there is no other show that she loves as much as spongebob, it’s so weird!

with louise’s second birthday looming, i’m starting to think that it may be time to bring her to the dentist. we have a doctor’s appt ON louise’s birthday so i guess we’ll see what he says but i am NOT looking forward to it, she is NOT going to like it. when did you take your kids to the dentist? if you haven’t yet, what age to you plan on starting?

p.s. i’m still having problems commenting on blogger.com blogs, it’s something about the captcha codes, i can comment on blogger.com blogs that don’t have them, but every time i try to comment on a blog that has one it says the code is wrong. hopefully the issue will be resolved soon.

katery — Thu, 19 Jan 2012 22:13:42 +0000

the big 0-2 is coming up… louise will be 2 on the 31st and we’ve got two big challenges ahead, kicking the deedee (pacifier) and potty training. louise looooooves her deedee so i know that will be difficult and potty training scares the crap out of me!! any advice?

p.s. i’m having random problems posting comments on blogger.com, so if you’ve posted and i haven’t commented, please know i’ve tried!!

katery — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 23:57:51 +0000

the trip was great. every time we got to montana i wish we could move back and this trip was no different, the traveling part was not too bad on the way there, louise mostly watched spongebob (her absolute FAVORITE show) on the portable dvd player. she really didn’t cry or fuss on the way out there, the dvd player was a total godsend. usually we just use my laptop, but the battery life is short, just a few hours, and i know from previous experience that three or four hours does not cut it for this trip, hence the dvd player, who’s batter life is up to five hours. we had a GREAT time in montana just hanging out with family and friends, i can’t say we did anything super exciting, but it is just so nice to be HOME. our trip home was a little rough. we had a layover in minneapolis, once we boarded to plane, louise was fussy. she did not nap at all and just wanted to watch spongebob, but you are not allowed to use electronic devices during take-off and landing. unfortunately, once we boarded, the pilot didn’t like the way the brakes felt and we had to wait while a mechanic came to look at the plane, louise was not happy. it was decided that we had to deboard and switch planes and this is when things really went down hill. we were delayed for 2 1/2 hours and by the time we got on the next plane, louise was CRABBY. she cried for a solid 20 minutes on the flight from minneapolis to michigan, i know everyone hated us, we were “those” people. we were supposed to be back in michigan around 10pm, but didn’t end up getting in until almost 1am, which put us home at 2am, we were SO tired. i am still tired. even though i wish we could still be in montana, it was really nice to get home, sleep in my own bed and see DADDY. unbelievably, i didn’t take ANY pictures, i’m still kind of pissed at myself for that. all in all, a great trip.

katery — Thu, 05 Jan 2012 21:34:21 +0000

was i taking happy pills the other day?? another baby? what am i, nuts? ya’ll, please remind me not to have sex on the days when i am feeling extra good!! i am NOT prepared for another baby!

sorry for my blogging slump, i don’t know why i go through stages when i just don’t feel like blogging, but i obviously do, i appreciate those of you who still read. and speaking of blogging slumps, it’s probably going to seem like i’m in another one, because, we’re going to montana tomorrow! we will be gone for a week and i’m guessing i will not be blogging while we’re there (i’m not bringing my laptop, i must be totally crazy). i am ~~pretty~~ really nervous about the flying part of this trip. this will be the fourth or fifth time i’ve flown with louise, the third time that it will be just the two of us, carl was with us for a couple of the other flights (my step-daughter was with us on one of those flights too, which was great). the thought of trying to entertain a toddler for a total of about five hours travel (with layover) is daunting. we are bringing a portable dvd player with headphones so louise can watch her favorite show (spongebob squarepants) and i’m bringing a few other dvd’s too (REALLY hoping she’ll leave said headphones on, we did practice once and it went well, i really don’t want to drive the rest of the plane nuts with spongebob). we are also bringing a purse full of tissue paper (was that your suggestion bird?), a magnadoodle (which louise hasn’t seen yet), a set of dolls that my mom got louise for christmas, some band-aids, some scotch tape, her blankie (of course) and plenty of dee-dees (pacifiers). i would like to bring every toy we own, but of course, i need to have enough room to bring enough diapers in my carry-on in case we get stuck overnight in minneapolis (**fingers so crossed that this does not happen** i think i have some mojo since i got bumped off my last flight… i hope i do anyway)… so, that is what’s going on here, if anyone has any last-minute travel suggestions, please, don’t be shy, share them with me!!

louise with the ornament she tried to take a bite out of

katery — Tue, 03 Jan 2012 03:19:04 +0000

what have i done? i’ve skipped over blogging about christmas and the new year, i’ve been mia, i’ve just not been feeling it lately, i don’t know what to write about and to be perfectly honest, i’m not entirely sure that’s such a bad thing. this has really been a blog for me to lay down feelings about infertility, being a new mom and postpartum depression and over the past few weeks, i haven’t had much to say regarding those subjects and i’m thinking that’s a good thing. i’m feeling better. i don’t know if it’s because my husband was home for a couple of weeks or if my meds finally clicked and started working to their full potential, i don’t know what it is, but i almost feel normal. like almost normal enough to give some thought to the idea of trying for #2. this time around though, there will be no doctors, no tests, no surgeries, no procedures… if it doesn’t happen the old-fashioned way, it’s not happening. i stand pretty firm in my decision that the road to a possible second pregnancy will be different from the road to louise. i don’t want to go through all that stuff again, i want to have another baby but not if it means i’ve gotta go through two years of hell to get there. so, that’s what i’m thinking about right now… this is just short post to get things rolling again, sorry i’ve been mia, i’ve got pictures to post and christmas tales to tell so i promise i’ll be more attentive to my blog in 2012.

katery — Thu, 15 Dec 2011 23:24:23 +0000

i’m starting to get a little nervous about our upcoming trip out west. it will just be louise and i so i will be soley responsible for entertaining her through bot of the flights, one of which is about an hour and a half and the other that is just over two hours. in the past i brought an arsenal of small toys i could pull out one by one which didn’t entertain nearly as long as i thought it would. the last couple times we’ve flown, carl has been with me and louise has watched yo gabba gabba on one of our laptops, but it’s loud and we got more than one dirty look from other passengers. better than a screaming baby, i thought to myself. this time i have decided that we need to try headphones because i can’t weather the dirty looks when it’s just me. after reading many reviews i chose kidz gear wired headphones.

they were about $18 which seemed reasonable. now i just have to worry about whether or not she will actually wear them. after they arrived i put them on her and she walked around the house for about twenty minutes without taking them off. i think that’s a good sign considering there was no noise actually coming out of them. i plugged them into my computer to make sure they were compatible and not only were they compatible, the sound is pretty effing good. better than the sound from my $50 headphones anyway. so, i will try to entertain her with small toys and things, but i’ve got my backup, a computer and an ipod both loaded with children’s shows that she canwatch over and over if she has to, ANYTHING to keep her quiet and happy on the plane.

and just for good measure, i’m throwing in a cute bath time photo too

katery — Sun, 11 Dec 2011 19:20:44 +0000

so, i don’t have much to write about but i’m overdue for a post, so i figured i’d just start writing and see what came to me. i am pretty happy right now, well, i probably shouldn’t HAPPY, that’s a bit of an overstatement, but i don’t feel really bad, which is a step in the right direction. carl was gone sunday-thursday last week, i’m so glad it’s OVER, i really hate it when he travels, have i expressed that enough??? he will be gone this week wednesday-friday, which isn’t too bad, it could definitely be worse. last night i went over to my friend sarah’s house (all by myself, no baby!), her husband also travels for work but the situation is a little different, he travels to FIND work, he does construction and there is just nothing around here right now. he’s been gone for over a week and they’ve got three kids and one car, so sarah is stuck at home with three kids and no car. i’m pretty sure i would lose my mind. they lost their cable tv a while back so they got netflix and then they lost their internet, so now they can only watch whatever dvd’s they’ve got. then she told me she went to take the garbage out and the garbage company had taken their trash cans because they hadn’t paid the bill. i feel so bad for her, especially with christmas coming up, no money to pay your bills probably means no money for presents. i wish i could help her out but we are stretched pretty thin financially. a local radio station does a what they call a “holiday break-in” where they sneak into your house, decorate, leave presents and fill your cupboards with food, if i had known things were that rough for them right now i would have nominated her, i tried to today but it’s too late for submissions, boo. hopefully something comes through for her husband in the next couple days and they get some money for christmas (and to pay their bills).

i guess i did have something to say after all! on a lighter note, after hours of haggling with verizon on the phone, they FINALLY agreed to send me a new (different) phone, whatever you do, don’t ever get a kin two (or one for that matter). the reason i got it in the first place was because it has an 8 megapixel camera and wi-fi and i do a lot of texting/picture messaging, which is exactly what never worked on the phone, the wi-fi and picture messaging. i actually don’t even think you can buy them anymore, probably because they are so junky. this is what it looked like:

first they tried to replace it with some crappy phone so i had to call them and complain that it didn’t have to same functions as my current phone, so they sent me an lg enlighten, it’s a smartphone and it operates on the droid gingerbread system and i LOVE it.

i’m so happy because i can finally do everything i want with my phone, this thing has capabilities that i don’t even understand, i mean, it’s not an iphone or anything, but i’m pretty happy with it, especially since it was FREE.

louise is doing good, a little crabby, maybe getting more teeth? not sure. i can’t wait until christmas so she can play with her kitchen! i so love christmas, if i could buy presents for everyone in the world i probably would, i even like wrapping them. only two more weeks, yay!!

katery — Tue, 06 Dec 2011 19:50:58 +0000

wow, i am really slacking on posting, sorry about that, i don’t know where the time goes! things are going pretty good and that’s saying a lot because carl is out-of-town, he left sunday and won’t be home until thursday, even though we miss him, i am doing ok, i don’t feel like the world is ending. i’m REALLY happy about this because being depressed really sucks. sunday was kind of difficult as carl left very early so we had a very long boring day. we couldn’t go outside because it was raining so we basically just hung around the house all day. last night we went to my dad’s house for dinner which was really nice, i love having things to do when carl is out-of-town. we don’t have any plans tonight or tomorrow but that’s ok, as i said, i’m feeling pretty good and it’s only two more days. i still can’t wait until he comes home though.

we decided that having a christmas tree this year would just be too difficult. our living room is basically a giant playpen, it’s almost completely baby proofed, so if i need to was the dishes or hop in the shower really quick, i don’t worry too much about it because i know louise will be safe. if we had a tree i would have to be in the room with her at all times, otherwise i would worry that she would be eating glass, wrapping light cords around her neck or trying to climb it. last year we had a fence around the tree and it worked pretty good:

BUT… there is absolutely positively NO way that would keep louise out this year. so, we’ve opted for the charlie brown christmas branch this year:

we put it on the mantel of the fireplace, out of baby’s reach, here it is after i added presents (i think we’ll be adding a few lights too):

i love chirstmas, LOVE it. there is nothing better than giving people presents, i even like to wrap them. i wish i had more money so i could buy a present for everyone i know and for all my bloggy friends too!! so, that’s all for now, i promise to update sooner rather than later, PROMISE.

p.s. i almost forgot, gwen stefani has a super cute line of kids clothing at target, we’ve bought several pieces, this is one of them:

katery — Mon, 28 Nov 2011 22:56:44 +0000

i said i would post about me soon and today’s the day. right now i am feeling pretty darn good. we had a very nice thanksgiving, carl cooked a ham and a turkey and his aunt, uncle and sister came over as well as my dad and step-mom. the ham was weird, it looked beautiful:

but turned out really mushy, blech, i’ve never had mushy ham before, it was gross. the turkey was delish though and that’s what counts.

so back to me, currently i am feeling pretty good, i’m not sure if it’s the meds or the fact that carl has been home a lot, which is totally AWESOME, i sooooo wish he had a job the didn’t include travel. tonight he is leaving to go to ohio or something and will be home tomorrow. so far i am ok with it but he literally JUST walked out the door. knowing he will be home tomorrow is pretty comforting though. so, it’s really just a hurry up and wait thing, i didn’t think my meds were helping all that much, so a while back i lowered my anti-depressant does and stopped taking abilify, then there was the really bad time, so i went back to my original anti-depressant dose (effexor xr for those of you who are curious) and started back up with the abilify and now i feel pretty good, i hope it’s not a fluke. i am more than happy to take meds if i know that they are actually helping and so far, they seem to be. that’s in addition to taking adderall during the day (which i KNOW helps, i am useless when i forget to take it before work) and ambien to sleep, i’m just a walking pharmacy (fitting since i work in one, no?) these days, but whatever, if meds help, i’ll take them. my appt with the new therapist is just a few weeks off. to be honest, i’m not 100% sure that therapy is super useful for me, but i am willing to try anything. maybe i just haven’t found the right therapist? i’ve only seen a couple so we’ll give it a shot. so that’s my “me” update for now. louise and i are off to my dad’s for dinner tonight and i think we might be going to visit my step-sister tomorrow night. these little visits help a lot when it’s just louise and i, they really help to keep the lonely away.

i have to thank all my bloggy friends for your continued support. i am not always the best at updating and you all continue to be there for me, i’m not really sure what i would do without you. THANK-YOU.

katery — Sat, 26 Nov 2011 19:07:55 +0000

i have been wanting to get a play kitchen for louise for a while now, i prefer the wooden ones as they are generally nicer, but they are usually so pricey, 100′s of dollars. i found this one at penney’s yesterday for $100 and snatched it up:

i also picked up some accessories for it for just $20 each, this and this:

i’m pretty pleased with myself this stuff is usually out of our budget. in addition to the great price they had a coupon for $20 off if you spent $100 or more, which i did. they also had a nice workbench for about $100 but we don’t need a kitchen AND a workbench, as much as i’d like to have both. i also got her a mrs. potato head today under my blogger friend celeste’s advice, her son has a couple and i guess he LOVES them. if you haven’t checked out her blog, please do, she is a really good friend, i talk to her nearly every day, so even though we’ve never met in person, i feel like we know each other! so louise’s christmas shopping is DONE.

and here’s some updated pictures from a walk we took the other day (we live right by a church) louise is doing great, she’s her normal, active, happy self!

i’m doing ok, more about me in a later post