i finally found the heartbeat!!

last night i pulled out the ol’ doppler again to see if i could find the heartbeat since the doctor just had to touch my belly once to hear it last week, and i found it!!! FINALLY! nice to know i can listen to it whenever i want now, at least i can try, just [...]

baby a is alive and kicking

so the doctor’s appt went well, my husband couldn’t go as usual because he is out of town on business, as usual, but i’m pretty used to that.  i keep meaning to tell my doctor that he travels a lot for work so she doesn’t think i have a non-present husband… not that it matters [...]

doctor’s appt.

i’m going to the doctor tomorrow, i’m not exactly sure what for since i’m new to this whole pregnancy thing, i think i will have regular appts every month now but i’m not sure.  maybe she will discuss my nt scan results in a little more detail, not that there’s anything to worry about, the [...]

yuck

i just woke up from the worst dream.  i dreamt that i was still pregnant with twins and i went into labor at seven months.  i went to the hospital, and things get a little fuzzy here since i don’t remember exactly what happened, but this is the jist of it- i delivered the babies [...]

tomorrow

is the first day of my second trimester, craziness, i never thought i would make it this far.  somebody left me a comment on my last post that bothered me, wtf, why do people come to infertility blogs to leave rude comments, don’t we have enough shit to deal with???

extra gonal f???

i still have some gonal f left from my last iui cycle, i don’t know what to do with it, i feel weird getting rid of it knowing that there’s people that might want it, BUT… i did use a dose on myself, it’s almost a full frikken pen though and that shit is not [...]

cautiously optimistic… VERY cautiously optimistic

i am feeling pretty good after getting the news about the nt scan yesterday.  like i said before i am always worried with each test or milestone that the bubble will burst and something will go wrong.  i guess i have mixed feelings now.  on the one hand i am starting to feel a little [...]

good news!

i called the doctor’s office because i forgot to ask yesterday when i could expect to hear the results of the scan.  when the nurse called back she said “i actually have your results right here and everything looks good!” so it looks like baby a doesn’t have downs syndrome and i am so relieved.  [...]

there’s a baby in there!

i’m not sure why i haven’t mentioned this yet, but i haven’t, so here it is: i have to pee ALL the time, like every five minutes, it is ridiculous, this has been going on for a while now, 6-8 weeks i would say.  in addition to that, in the last week or so, the [...]

scan tomorrow

yesterday i used the doppler to listen for a heart beat again, this time, instead of just taking what the display said for the rate, i counted it myself and got 90, i am sure now that i am hearing my own heart beat.  of course now i am feeling worried about whether or not [...]