hpts and ultrasounds

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well, i’ve had a day to let the news sink in but it still doesn’t seem real.  it seems like we tried FOREVER to get pregnant, i never really thought this day would come, deep down inside i really felt that i would never get pregnant.  it was an upsetting thought because adoption is not a choice that we felt was right for us, at least not right now, so i knew if i couldn’t get pregnant we were going to be childless for a while, possibly forever.

so convinced was i that i was not pregnant, i took a hpt in the bathroom at work on june 10th, to my udder amazement, it was indeed positive.  i sent husband a text message “pregnant.”  he called me back in tears he was so happy.  obviously i was very happy with the news as well, but given my history of infertility and ectopic pregnancy i was totally freaked out as well.  i thought, even if it’s not ectopic, will there be a heartbeat? i had to wait for two weeks to find out, it was the longest two weeks of my life.  last weekend i was having pains on either side and was totally convinced that the pregnancy was ectopic.  finally the day came for my ultrasound, i was so nervous it was crazy.  i had to see my doctor’s partner who i had never met before because my doctor was out of town, he had a med student with him, she was actually the one to give me the ultrasound, and let me tell you, she was not very swift with a dildo cam, she had that thing at angles that should be illegal.  she found the heartbeat, they tried to show it to me but i really couldn’t see it, it was SO tiny.  then she started rooting around trying to find my tubes to make sure there were no pregnancies there, that’s when i found out that i have multiple cysts on my ovaries which probably explains the random pains i was having last weekend.  she moved back to my uterus and showed me the heartbeat again, that’s when the doctor said, so, what you’ve got here is twins.  i was in total shock, my doctor’s office has tons of baby pictures hanging in the hallways, they are mostly singletons with some twins and a few triplets thrown in, i never thought we would be one of the couples with twins, but i am excited about the prospect!

now… most people have their first ultrasound at 12 weeks, i had mine at six, and the thing about that is, it’s so early, anything could happen.  one of the babies could stop growing and be absorbed.  some people get pregnant with twins and don’t even know it because by the time they have their first ultrasound at 12 weeks there is no evidence that there was ever more than one.  i hope they both stick around, but i am trying to prepare myself for all possibilities, including miscarriage.  my next ultrasound is in two weeks on the eighth, i think we’ll have a better idea then, i think if they’re both still there at that point that they will probably both be sticking around, hopefully until they’re done cooking.  i still don’t have any morning sickness, in fact the only real pregnancy symptom that i have is sore boobs that seem to be bigger than normal.

i know that this pregnancy may cause me to lose some readers, it can be very hard to hear that someone besides yourself is pregnant, even when it’s someone you know has struggled with infertility, i hope i don’t lose anyone, but i understand if i do.

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