i am so freaked out about whether or not this is a viable pregnancy that i don’t even want to go anywhere or talk to anyone. husband went to help out at some bike race thing and won’t be home until tomorrow, he left at 4:45 this morning. i did leave to drop off a present for my dad, go to subway and rent some movies, five to be exact, maybe they will help turn my brain off for a while. i all ready watched the first one, it was called blue powder, talk about depressing, but pretty good. i keep having random weird little cramps/twinges that are not helping my anxiety level… four more days…
i just read online that you might not have normal pregnancy symptoms, like morning sickness, if you have an ectopic pregnancy, guess who hasn’t been sick at all, that’s right, ME. google should be fucking outlawed.
soooo, i just watched revolutionary road, WOW, what a heart warmer. since you can’t hear the sarcasm in my voice i will just tell you that i’m being sarcastic. way to pick the depressing movies tonight kate. first it was blue powder with all the death and then revolutionary road with the 1950’s do-it-yourself abortion, i think i’ll go hang myself in the shower now.
9 Comments
June 20, 2009 at 8:03 pm
Oh babe, you are doing great!
I am sure you feel like climbing the walls .
June 20, 2009 at 8:28 pm
i do celia, i do.
June 20, 2009 at 8:52 pm
You’re doing great! Call a girlfriend, go out to eat or to a movie. Don’t forget to breathe! You’re almost there!
June 21, 2009 at 12:53 am
Praying for ya. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy.
Go find a drive-thru ice cream place.. Hang in there hon.
June 21, 2009 at 4:27 am
Yep IF can turn 4 days into 4 years – sorry it’s so tough. May i suggest a heart warming disney or pixar cartooon? Whenever im down i watch Madagascar 2 , works everytime
June 21, 2009 at 5:10 am
it is WAY too early for you to be getting morning sickness unless you’re going to have super-killer-vomit-all-the-time-sickness, many women don’t even feel nauseous until week 9 so please, please don’t use MS as a stick to measure by – it will only drive you slowly mad with all the differing stories. (Cooincidently I read that severe MS can be a sign of it being etopic – basically they know nothing).
Not long now, I really hope you can keep yourself occupied in that time. ICLW has started, maybe try to hit iron commentator, reading and commentating on everyone will take up some time!
take care, thinking of you.
June 21, 2009 at 8:22 am
you know, i’m not crazy about the whole iron commenter thing. it seems like people just click on your blog and leave a very generic comment like “good luck” so they don’t actually have to read the blog. i like to actually SAY something about what the person has written when i leave my iclw comments.
June 21, 2009 at 5:16 am
Yes, I too have seen Revolutionary Road…and you lady, stay away from Google!
Wishing, Hoping and Praying that your pregnancy is viable!
*ICLW*
June 21, 2009 at 7:47 am
The days tick by so slowly when you’re waiting for THE u/s. And the next one, and the next…. Keeping you in my thoughts!
ICLW