i had my ultra sound today. i had prepared myself for this iui not resulting in a pregnancy, but i was not prepared for this. i had two good sized follicles on my left ovary, but my endometrial lining was only 5.4 and my re decided that proceeding with the iui would be a waste of money. last month my lining was 5.2, but i assumed that the estrace would work and it would be fine this month. there is no way of knowing if this is a result of the clomid or if i just have thin endometrial lining, because i didn’t have any ultra sounds until after i had been on clomid for a few months. my re says the next step is injectables, which he says will be $500 or $600 a cycle, but before we start the injectables he wants to do a laparoscopy to see what condition my fallopian tubes are in. if they are in good shape we will proceed with the injectables for a few months, but if they’re not it will be straight to ivf. i am fucking devastated. i was supposed to go to work after my appt. but i called in sick while we were checking out. thank-god my husband ended up coming with me to this ultra sound, i don’t know what i would have done if i was all alone. my re said to go ahead and trigger tomorrow night and just have some good old fashioned sex, but it is unlikely that it will result in anything.
so far i haven’t found much comfort in blogging, but i’ll keep trying. maybe it’s helping and i just don’t know it yet. i have however found some comfort in reading other people’s blogs who are going through similar things.
5 Comments
November 20, 2008 at 4:23 pm
So sorry this time wasn’t the one. So many others understand the disappointment. Be good to yourself today!
November 20, 2008 at 4:45 pm
thank-you for the words of encouragement. it is so nice to finally have someone just be supportive without adding in some advice like, “it will happen when it’s meant to happen,” or “you’ll get pregnant as soon as you stop trying.”
November 20, 2008 at 11:49 pm
I know how disappointing it can be when you feel like you’re doing everything they tell you too but your body just won’t cooperate. Don’t give up hope. And don’t stop writing- you might not feel it but it does help to get it all out!
November 21, 2008 at 12:08 am
i won’t, i’m going to keep writing… do you have a blog myivf? if you do i can’t find it. thanks for the support!
November 22, 2008 at 6:47 pm
Hello there! I’m here from ICLW.
I guess you will find more comfort as you go along. I was astonished to find such a huge community of people connecting here over IF issues. Like you I find comfort in reading other people’s stories and realizing that we are really not alone.
welcome to the blogosphere
Good luck on your journey!