here we are at eight weeks… i think, i’m not exactly sure because they measure things a little differently at dr. hollywood’s office. i think we are eight weeks exactly today but i’m not 100% sure. if we were measuring the way that it’s normally done i would be eight weeks on friday, but dr. hollywood said i ovulated a few days earlier than normal and blah blah blah, i don’t know, let’s just call it eight weeks. in any case, we have one strong heartbeat, baby b didn’t make it, but we’re ok with that, our ultimate goal was to have one baby, and i’m not going to lie, i was a bit overwhelmed at the prospect of two, but really we would have been happy either way. baby b is still there but has no heartbeat and will probably be absorbed. dr. hollywood said that it’s yolk sac is a little large which sometimes indicates chromosomal problems.
baby a is measuring spot on at 14.8mm and i could hear it’s heartbeat LOUD and CLEAR today, it’s heart rate was 170 and dr. hollywood said it’s yolk sac is normal sized, phew, breathing some sighs of relief, but i’m sure i’ll be back to nervous wreck soon enough. with this ultrasound we have officially graduated from reproductive endocrinologist to obgyn, which is exciting. i called and made my first ob appt, they wanted to schedule me for next week but we are going on vacation and won’t be back until the 19th, so my first ob appt is july 21st. it’s just the nurse consult but i’m excited to be going back to my ob!
here’s an ultrasound picture, it’s kind of confusing because baby b is still there on the left, but baby a is the one on the right and that’s our survivor! it’s also still pretty blurry and i can’t really make out any baby shape yet, but i feel better knowing that a is still there and going strong.

p.s. i don’t know what’s up with my widgets but they are not working for some reason. i’ve never had any problems with my ilcw widget but it’s not showing up the way it usually does, i was also really hoping to put up one of those widgets showing what the baby looks like but it’s not working either, it just shows up as text. anyone have any ideas?
i guess they’re the two dark spots in the middle **shrug**?
baby b
so, there you have it, hopefully they will both still be there at my next ultrasound appt on the 8th. the fact that i haven’t had any morning sickness, especially with twins, is really making me nervous, especially since i have read some things that suggest women who don’t have morning sickness are more likely to miscarry. of course i’ve also read that’s not true and some women who have no morning sickness at all deliver healthy babies, but i still can’t help but be scared shitless. i’m sorry i haven’t been the best iclwer this month, i’m just very distracted, but i really appreciate all the comments i’ve been getting, thank-you for all the congratulations!

